Not Able To Recognize Myself.

Why I’m afraid to lose weight and turn into someone I won’t recognize:

I’m about to start a cut, a pretty harsh one… just about 40 pounds in 6 months. It’ll be crazy hard but I’m ready for it. I know I have the dedication to eat those shitty ass meals, act like they’re great, while my friends destroy some scrumptious fucking dishes.

The only one fear I have is, what if I am unable to recognize myself. I leave for university in 7 months, and honestly I’d like to be able to know it’s me going. It’s gonna be a tough enough time being a brown fucker in the United Kingdom, and not recognizing myself in the mirror will be quite problematic.

Although I’m sure it’ll be easier to fit in, if I’m not overweight, and it’ll be easier getting along … less excess weight lol. I’m pretty sure not being able to recognize who I was a year ago will be quite fucking hard, let me tell you why.

I have always been slightly to very overweight, so the change to being skinny eh em SHREDDED, will be quite different. Writing this I’m thinking maybe it won’t be such a bad thing.

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