https://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=youtu.be&v=qVdPh2cBTN0 Everything feels so confusing. It's all so hollow. I'm trying to look for some meaning, in people, in actions, in anything. I don't know it all feels so cold, so empty. I'm constantly struggling with my perception of myself. I used to fear that I wasn't acting in line with who I was, but … Continue reading You’re Somebody Else – Flora Cash

TW: Suicide https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5dmQ3QWpy1Q Everyday I come across songs that speak to me more than the average vibe inducing song. I know that I've heard this before, I found it through Kiiara right now though, I was listening to Feels when I found it. It deeply saddens me that Chester Bennington is dead. I remember the … Continue reading Heavy – Linkin Park (feat. Kiiara)

https://youtu.be/pUizbFJXMKw Sometimes I wonder if people change because of all the layers built up by their experiences in life or because the experiences in life strip everything away until you're left barren. I don't think that makes too much sense. What I mean to say is, does experience change you by adding on, or change … Continue reading Phil Good – I’ll Fix It | Sofar Los Angeles

https://youtu.be/q31tGyBJhRY When the dust settles, it's just me by lonesome.

https://youtu.be/gY1gnPpv3Zk It's not like I'll be here to feel the consequences. What's holding me back? It might end all the pain, but it'll end all the happy alongside it. No more memories to make, no more smiles to fake. No more sadness to suffocate me. What if it's not the end though. What if there's … Continue reading Suicide – Isaac Dunbar

https://youtu.be/TdZ2Vlrfk_0 I don't know why so many people go through the same kind of pain, but for such different reasons. We find ourselves addicted, changing. Our own friends don't recognise who we've become. I remember how I called my mom sometimes from uni fully fucked up. She knew I wasn't there but then again, what … Continue reading Bazzi – I don’t think I’m okay

https://youtu.be/YPsjSWxm-LE I don't like how I wake up to youtube suggesting me this song, like I habitually put on music before I get out of bed, but like @youtube calm down with your suggestions. Got all me all wrecked and shit.

https://youtu.be/b_4kdOEcVbk I have a lot of work to get done, and I'm still procrastinating. I wanted to write this massive post, but this feels better. I don't know at what point in my life, I began to feel this way. When I'm not distracted, meeting/talking to people, I find that constant feeling of a muscle … Continue reading Running on my mind – slowed

https://youtu.be/LZkDZFwzcSk Shit's broken.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_4xtFdXJP0A You ever connect with someone too much? Like just get it too much? The first time I heard this song, I thought it was overly sexualising domestic abuse (child abuse specifically). When I hear it now, I get it a completely different vibe. For some reason it speaks to me about that person, the … Continue reading daddy issues – the neighbourhood

The first time I heard this song was just about a year ago, I think. I don't know how I found it, maybe it was a suggestion from a friend, but then when I came to Turkey listening to it became a common occurence. At first cold/mess seemed like just about every other love/break up … Continue reading cold/mess – Prateek Kuhad

https://youtu.be/h_m-BjrxmgI As each word is spoken, memories arise from years I forgot existed. Times of sticking post it notes to my face for attention. Is there a song that aches more but demands to be sung along to?

https://youtu.be/nkLd-o64t9A When you find yourself at a point in your life where you realise you packed up your own happiness and set it free in a stream, a stream of struggle. You made the decisions you did for your own betterment, but all that's left is a box of broken memories, a journal of angst … Continue reading Aron Wright – You’re the last thing on my mind

https://youtu.be/UYwF-jdcVjY This song, literally word for word describes how I feel this morning. Posty really got them vibes going.

https://youtu.be/Vq4LeTz3Ifw I mentioned this song in one of my early posts, back when I had my link on my Instagram. I remember someone I know telling me a day or two after I posted whatever it was that I posted, it was rough in January, not because of someone, just because of something I can't … Continue reading Vancouver Sleep Clinic – Someone to Stay

https://youtu.be/z9Lx6qDKQR0 n/a

https://youtu.be/V0lw3qylVfY Sometimes I think of things I have no business thinking about.Sometimes I catch myself awake at 4am thinking of someone.Sometimes I wonder what her voice would feel like.Sometimes I wonder if I'd recognise it. I think I would.Sometimes I realise I may not be making the right decision.Sometimes I accept that the regret may … Continue reading Unsteady – X Ambassadors

https://youtu.be/RvkQZzRoYNk It's confusing when you aren't aware, aware of whether it's a fear of commitment that holds you back or a fear of sacrifice. I suppose in essence there is sacrifice in commitment, but there is sacrifice in every decision. Though it does get really confusing when you should leave for yourself, but stay so … Continue reading Stephen – I never stay in love

https://youtu.be/Hp_4b6MgCfY https://youtu.be/jrAsAl6hE74 I usually wake up and open up youtube, to check if anything's worth getting up over, or should I try and fall asleep again, Getting out of bed is hard. Recently, I found Billy Lockett and to put it simply, I feel like he and most of the people that listen to his … Continue reading Billy Lockett – Call Me in The Morning and Say I’m Sober

https://youtu.be/HwKb5d2MgPg It's nice how music has the ability to drive emotions you thought are long gone, right back up.

https://youtu.be/U-v0_RK6zSc A song that perfectly explains all my thoughts, since 2 years. It's not healthy to compete all the time, but I can when I have to, I think it's important to make sure you never discount yourself. I remember I had this conversation which was about how I said that a person at their … Continue reading Joji – Slow Dancing In The Dark

https://youtu.be/qvmZ2JdijDk I have genuinely not heard a more powerful song in a while. This mans voice, the lyrics of the song, everything. Just listen to it.

https://youtu.be/KiOM0Bp3cZw My ex-housemate made me first listen to this song. I remember when I was in Kent I used to listen to a lot of rap but not much EDM. Until this. She was playing it one time when we were all getting blasted as fuck, completely plastered would be an understatement. The amount I … Continue reading Empty Room (Cabu Remix)

https://youtu.be/BQqEMLOOMCo I genuinely feel like it won't be hard this time, trusting somebody. This song is basically about letting your hair down, trusting someone, exposing your entirety to a person. If I where to be honest, I could give this link to someone I would be interested in and be like this is me, every … Continue reading SiR – Hair Down

https://youtu.be/46g6jpWU0nY I suppose this is what everyone lonely wants, but we've been made to believe its what we need. The only thing a person needs is fulfilment, goodluck finding it. It might be in your partner, your child, or your profession, but purpose is something everyone should seek.

https://youtu.be/RHhkd2B87Q8 I think I first heard them song somewhere between 2015 and 2017. I can't completely be sure but I think my high school partner introduced me to it. It literally just showed up on my youtube suggestions, and I must say it hits hard. To be honest it makes me remember the nights you … Continue reading Seafret – Wildfire

https://youtu.be/ANzgMYgoJsA The song is phenomenal on it's own but it's obviously Cole's verse that takes it. I suggest listening to it, start to finish many times. This is what happy music is now. Remembering the good days, but remembering you're only fucking 21, even if everyone you've ever known gets deleted from your mind. You … Continue reading Dreamville – Sacrifices

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dG6-bU6esKo I doubt you remember this, I doubt anyone does for that matter. I loved this song when I was 16ish, I remember this playlist I had on my ps3 back then, oof was such a romantic back then. this was the first sing i ever intimately heard with someone, being a kid was a … Continue reading Lifehouse ft. Natasha Bedingfield – Between The Raindrops

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fRNkQH4DVg8 For those of you that are in my age bracket, you get this. Those days with long drives and chainsmokers, closer keeping you company, pure moments filled with only joy, sadness hadn't manifested it's truest form yet. Paris has always been a song I loved vibing out too, its been so many years. My … Continue reading The Chainsmokers – Paris

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_UGYwc__aFI In August I made a promise to a person who was then a friend, and has now become a mere acquaintance, i miss them. Basically, I really fucked myself over last year, i got into some seriously stupid shit, addictions piled on top of addictions, meaningless nights and mornings filled with withdrawal. My friend … Continue reading TENDER – Erode

https://youtu.be/00hOcybEp6k A comment, the top comment by Renzo Damn... songs hit different when you remember the good times you used to have with that special person, your half and the most amazing thing that happened in your life. The song just makes me remember the young and stupid memories that have marked my life and … Continue reading Post Malone – a thousand bad times (s+r)

I've been listening to the live bing lounge version constantly. Like nonstop. It makes me wonder again and again if I'll ever get an answer. I keep asking but no response, constantly. I don't know.

First put on Comatose by Mikki Ekko (the bing lounge version) Now tell me am I doing this to myself for no reason, or is this pain temporary. Seeing me?, reminds me of the reason why I couldn't fall asleep next to anyone.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rBf6BKVrBgY It's just around 12:55 in the afternoon, and I am the slightest bit hungover, my tolerance has gone to crap. I used to be unrivaled when it came to anything over 37% but things have changed from the mornings I woke up moaning in agony, feeling my liver pulsing. I'm pretty sure I'm not … Continue reading Pull Me Down – Mikky Ekko