A Prayer

I don’t particularly believe in a higher power, I just hope you’re actually there.

I pray for another chance to be happy, I pray for one more chance. I promise not to take it for granted, the simplicity, the ease, the purity. I promise I won’t be ungrateful this time, I promise to accept and understand. I promise to listen and believe. I promise I won’t take advantage of another opportunity. I pray for another chance at peace, at happiness. I pray for you to take all my pain away and leave me with just anguish. For anguish alone I can take, but all of this I can’t.

I promise I’ll give it all up, my entire lifestyle if that’s what you want. Revert back to someone innocent of sin. I promise to take all the lessons I’ve learnt and apply then. To be who I should. I pray you give me one more chance, this time I won’t want more, I won’t lie. I’ve learnt the truth of the world. I don’t seek attention, just peace. I pray you give it to me. I pray you support me through this time so that I can push on to the next.

I pray to you. I make these promises to you, for my sake. I pray you bestow upon me friendship and fulfilment. I pray you allow me wholesomeness. I promise this time I won’t fuck it up. I promise, but please just help me through this.